Well, this will be probably my last thoughts on Nathaniel. He's moved on and is emerging into his 'self.' It's hard to let go of someone that you love, but I guess all parents have to go through it. Yes, he has became my son, if not legally, at least emotionally. Nathaniel and his bf moved out a week before Christmas into their first apartment. It's funny, but as much as I hated his adolescent illogical behavior and total irresponsibility, I miss having to remind him of things that he had to do.
Yes, he has become my 'son,' and I still worry about whether he's getting to school on time, watching his budget enough, etc., but I know that I have to keep away and not interfere. They still have no transportation and David (his bf) takes the bus to work. Nathaniel doesn't work as David thinks he needs to put his energies into his school and keeping their home up. How do I say this...I want him to be who he is, but I'm scared of the possibility that he will make some wrong decisions.
Yesterday, they got a notice taped to their apartment door that their rent was becoming past due. Nathaniel immediately called us to borrow the car to go to the bank, get the money and pay the rent. Of course we let him, but I also hope that the lesson of life sinks in...that being that life can be hard and they have to be careful.
I'm not sure if I'll even stop worrying about him and David. They will always be in my heart.