How to say this without sounding like a broken record is tough. I am thankful for what I do have. It could be far worse. What I am trying to do is pay rent but that is near impossible with my bills that come regardless of position. My landlord has helped me tremendously but don't want to take advantage of that help. My problem is that there is only one person helping me. I know it isn't good for everyone and I fault nobody. I take help when it's freely offered. To the one that has helped in the last few months and to those that helped at the beginning, I thank you. I am getting limited help from the state but keep getting into a roadblock with disability. Been declined by them twice already. I figured that I would give you an update on this and a little groveling thrown in to boot.