seanriter

I hope none of you have ever experienced the feelings this poem evokes. I admit my feelings came very close to it, but please don't sweat. I am stronger, this poem was in many ways therapuetic in draining drakness from my heart. :-) Only when we have experienced the darkest of emotions we truly come to appreciate the light in life. Like they say, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. It is difficult to see hope in this poem, but compare the light you have experienced in life against this. I am sure then you will appreciate even the minor happy moments in life better. Treasure them like jewels, in the end only they will make u a rich man. Peace. Sean. PS: I apologize for the mistakes (literary I mean) in the peom.

Melancholia Tears leaking from the eyes cannot quench the fiery pain I have suppressed this flood long enough, because boys don?t cry Meaningless fury at my impotency in defeating this formless foe Dejected, exhausted of hoping and praying, waiting for it all end There is no peace, not even in the garden of paradise when chaos reins in my mind. Sands of time slip away, I wait for the moment when this pain would finally go away When I have breathed the last breath, when the spark of life has burned one last time Only then, only then this pain mercifully will end. Oh I want to let go, let go of this life I take refuge in the darkness; in its embrace I know I will be safe The light of life has hurt me too much; blissfully I will shut my eyes Shut off seductions of life?s illusions of hope and gladly I will sleep Oh what fool I was to ever think I would be happy, yes fool indeed I feel alone even in the company of friends and family Merriest of music does nothing but stir melancholia in me Happy faces belie agony even demons of hell can?t imagine Silence in the surroundings belies the hysteria with in Lust still stirs me for the beast we humans are but bliss in orgasm just isn?t complete Fears and guilt gnaw persistently at my being until a living carcass is all that remains Laughter, an insane laughter rattles me until deluge of tears try to drain pain in futility Born to die and die we all will, might as well fulfill this ultimate truth now than later Yes I dreamed dreams of happiness and of joy, that I might be happy some day. I am in the lonely desert of life and vultures are hovering, waiting for me to fall. Blessed darkness swirling, blurring out hurt, pain and I feel numbness engulf me My mind is going and I feel blissful nothingness, damn the world and damn life

Thank you DJ and Tragic Rabbit. This is my second poem here in AD, the other one is Life's Listless Litany. Sean.

I am what I am I fear no consequence Hell will freeze and heaven seize When I rock both beauty and beast Salvation or damnation I?ll be the judge I am what I am I fear no consequence I give myself freely to temptations To rage and anger, to lust and hatred No rules no guilt will ever bind me I am what I am I fear no consequence I?ll let no shepard lead me Nor let no satan sway me Shackles can never bind me I am what I am I fear no consequence. I am my own island living like a god Demons of hell and angels of heaven Rock with me until the times end I am what I am I fear no consequence Call it lovemaking or lustful f**king Giving and getting some is all I care Call me sinner or a saint what do I care I am what I am I fear no consequence

Thanx for the warm welcome, I appreciate it. For the record, this poem was my experiment in rhyming. I wrote it in one of my darkest moments. I hope all those who read it, look at its literary value (if at all there is any) rather than the feelings/import it conveys. I know it is impossible to separate the both, but I want it known that its not my intention to influence the readers towards negativity. Sean

Hi all, I am Sean just joined the site. Check out my poem and let know what you think. Senseless or sensible suicide Saluting the sepulchral silence Sundering seductive songs spell Solitude sways the soul to sleep Deaths determined delirium Dousing doleful depression as Dire doldrums derisively drawl Dark dusk demands deathly deed Bravely besting life?s jest Bleed blood to blissful burst Brandish bestial bayonets just Banishing black bigotry to dust Goodbye to fatal fears Goodbye to fanatical faith Goodbye to fantasized future Goodbye to phantom freedom