Saret Kefa

In reference to a school like that never being allowed...I hate to burst your bubble but there already is a school similar to that in New York. It's called the Harvey Milk Institue and it is entirely for gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered, etc students. I looked into going there when I came out to my dad and he tried to shoot me, lol. They provide housing for students who come in from out of state. It's really a remarkable place, and you're right, we could use MORE of them.

Well see, that's the other thing. I think that he just wants to be like, 'friends with benefits' He tries to pretend he's bi, but we both know it isnt true. He's just so confusing. He loves to fool around and make out and hold hands and all this, but like he doesnt want to date a guy. I think it might be because of his parents, they are ultra strict and his mom told him that if anyone found out he liked boys they would move away. He sends me such mixed signals, and its just so confusing. We initially hooked up like a year ago when we first met in high school. Then he went all hetero on me and I lectured him on being in denial. I was rather harsh and we didnt talk for a few months. Then we stumbled across each other, and this happened. Im so confused as to what to do. I dont want to ask him about it because Im afraid it will scare him away. And I dont want to stick around just to end up being hurt again. Im so conflicted.

Well you guys were right. I finally called him and we talked and he wasnt even phased. I guess I was just being paranoid. We went out to a movie this evening and were all snuggly in the back row, it was cool. And then on the way home he did something while I was driving that almost made me crash, and that Ive only read about in Penthouse forum! lol so I guess it was all in my head. Thanks for the advice!

Okay, I kind of lost my virginity last night and it was really awesome. I mean it was so amazing. But the guy I was with was acting differently. Before it happened, we were all over each other. Kissing after every breath, smooshing togther like we were trying to mesh our bodies into one. Even during we were like that. For the entire four hours we were just all over each other. And then afterward we only kissed a few times, and then I drove him home and we didnt even hold hands that much in the car, and I didnt even get a kiss goodnight (granted it was in front of his parent's house and they dont know, but still). Now its noon the day after, and he hasnt called me or sent me a text message (we're ALWAYS texting each other). and I know that he called me friend Tasha so its not like he lost both his arms and he cant dial... But he is still at work until 4, so Im not gonna worry about that until then. I dont know! I mean after it happened, I wanted to like I dunno....cuddle or somethin. (Im such a woman (no offense, lesbians)) I dont know what to think!!!!