Ancient Greeks practiced it, we now call it pederasty and yes it has no relationship whatsoever with pedophilia. And while in some cases it was abusive and shallow, it was more often a case of an older male mentoring a younger hellion. Underlined by the fact that there is an age limit where the relationship must end and the younger guy must take his place in society (and marry). Anyway, even I find myself attracted to older men at times. I have several crushes with some men in their forties that I know off-site, hehe. Their grasp on the machinations of this little ball of existence is much more firmer than mine and that I guess is what makes them infinitely more attractive than your average emptyheaded twink.But then again, certain factors stop me from pursuing those attractions. One is that society frowns upon it and two is that I really do not want to add further fuel to the Asian stereotype of us all wanting to be 'kept' boys. I certainly don't. *sigh* But sometimes I wish those invisible barriers didn't exist.Gay men particularly have no mentors. No one to look up to. Even their fathers are often distant, mysterious in their heterosexuality, and not someone who can readily understand the struggle of accepting your own homosexuality and the things that follow. Neither can the mothers. Like in my case, I grew up knowing very little about the gay culture. I believed that gay people actually were debased beings who pursued only sex and wanted to be females in dress and mannerism. This partly brought on my extreme near-suicidal depression in my late teens. The internet was crucial in me discovering that it wasn't so. That homosexuality was okay and there were plenty of people who are undergoing the same things I am. Not to mention these writing sites which served as an outlet and you guys who helped me partially on gaining enough courage to come out to my best friend in real life.Anywho, Life can be so cold sometimes. But I've long decided that I'd rather live than cop out because it's too 'unfair'.