Sign Of A Flatline

as an infrequent reader i am aware that this isn't the biggest complaint in the world and there is a chance it has already been addressed BUT: i have problems reading a multitude of stories on this website merely because of the colour of the text in conjunction with the background for example if a story is a black background with white text i can't read it without my eyes hurting, while i'm aware that there are ways around this as a read i feel it should be more the writers job to make their stories as readable as possible. While some people will have varying successes with different font and background combinations i think this is something that should be considered when looking at creating a home page.... that is all i have to say xD sorry if it wasted your time Pads

before i had a different story, but with recent going on's i felt i wanted to have the truth some people don't get protection even when anonymous i added what i cut a few years ago, changed things, and came out with something different that i wasn't sure i wanted to put in the edit. don't really enjoy it but can't say i'm given a choice. so this is it. In the living room Next to the fire Warm, contented Yet cold and yearning Craft knife poised I use those whitehot coals To slowly tentatively Clean my blade My shirt falls to the floor Revealing pale flesh Waiting, wanting Somehow begging For the blade My first line Short and deliberate An inch of pain Drawn clean and pure Another follows Two holes in my fa?ade Laying bare my pain Parading my anguish Blood congeal Panic re-lights The act I frowned upon the condemnations I passed all right and all wrong I never knew it was like this What else can follow? Self-contempt, revolution? Disgust and their ease? A new understanding comes I am what I hated The rest that follow All merge to one Shallow cuts Breaking shallow promise Now I?m the one begging for the circle never stops Loathing to blood to loathing the cuts too addictive The lines too reassuring Pain made measurable Anguish made tangible My secret act My secret hatred Concealed now Hidden from all others In a vain bid To protect myself Then that fateful day When I let my secret run A once trusted friend Turning from fear , shock disgust and disappointment A betrayal at the worst time From the worst corner Deepening the hole Multiplying the scars The circle widens Trust constantly misplaced And my circle decreases Fewer left to trust So many more to fear Then comes compassion Support and confidence An allegiance at the best time From an unsuspected corner I?ll be dragged out my hole Rebuilt by those who love Compelled through it Made better made stronger Pale flesh heals Friendships don?t Pain is never forever Neither are friends Now maybe someday I can help another Break the fa?ade See the pain Fix the suffering Cure the loneliness And understand the doubt For a code is created But those on the other side A code of conduct I?ll never be the betrayal Instead I?ll be the map For any other lost Within the labyrinth Of self harm

'came amid promises by President Barack Obama that he will work to repeal the policy.' i'm not a massive buff for american politics. but its my understanding that as commander in chief the president can just make these sorts of decisions without having to 'work' at all... jsut sign a piece of paper (executive order) Truman did it in 1948 to end segregation. why can't obama do the same thing, or is he just worried about the political implications of doing it? =S

funny

=P even dark chocolate with no sugar in is nice at the right time... xD chocolate is one of humanities best discoveries

I'm a bit confused as to why lyrics mean so much to you. surely the music has to be good, while I'll concede that sometimes bad lyrics can ruin a song, I often don't care, if I enjoy how a song sounds 90% I don't care about the lyrics. the same applies with 'popular music' although I admit to not being completely with the times I think to say that popular music is somehow designed for stupid people is little close minded. again I'll concede some of it is just trash but then I'll bet the 'popular' music of anyone's generation is subject to the same treatment at its time of release P

I think this is really goo, speaks to me the whole teenager thing is spot on, its perfectly crafted to get what you want. you should keep writing. but as mentioned i'm pleased and relieved your not still going through this. its hell P

amazing

have we just forgotten how impressive it is for someone to write that. for it to make sense backwards and forwards, and for it to have serious meaning? i mean really its amazing. i think idealism is never a bad thing even if its overshooting, you only get change by holding onto ideals. this person obviously beleives in something and regaurdless of what the reality of the future is those ideals may bring about one small change, which will be more of an impact than an average persons life. i also fail to see how age should have any impact on this what so ever

now THAT was great =P

i'm so glad this exists =P i'll keep it book marked for future use

love this.... it gives you a warm feeling inside when you read it. thanks for writing P

unless z kitty happen to be a lion.....................

thanks guys. incase you hadn;t guessed i'm a tad ashmed of that part of my life and mroe than al glad its behind me... this was well forced out of me by something i can't really explain... really what i've put up is about a 1/4 of what i've really got written (and this is a slightly tweaked version of the truth) =D i couldn't stop. bruin you got it right it was uplifting... well wiritng the end was uplifting for me anyway ^_^

i don't see how 'because it'll offend people' is such a good argument. i mean if you go around there will be many things which offend many people in many ways, but thats never been a good reason to make it illegal (sorry for teh wek agument but i'm just out of an exam and don't feel like coming up with any examples) plus nudist colonies, nudeist towns and nude beaches all work for people of all ages... so we've proof that the problems are with closed minds not any other good reason =P i'm all crazy thin atm, ya know the prime of my youth and all that crap. ^_^ so i fit into nice thin jeans..... infact i yhave problems finding waists small enough while having the leggs long enough. =D