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Thirdeye

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  1. I also wrote him right after I read it, but had to post it here as well. There were atleast three time I was thrown for a loop, he also had a bunch of great descriptives.
  2. Just finished the first chapter and had to post about how much I loved it. It was not at all what I expected. I highly recommend it to everyone here.
  3. Life has been crazy..lol thanks for fixing the avatar Dude!!
  4. loved this movie, another great British one is "Get Real"
  5. lol I laughed at the samething, atleast three times someone says effing.
  6. I actually thought it added to the story. It showed the struggle they went through and helped to really show the loyalty and love the friends had for each other. The last 6 chapters or so were just intense and fantastic
  7. LOL...this might be the best thread ever In the school bathroom when I was 12 and in the pool with my two straight friends 13-14
  8. Thanks for your replies guys. I'm not really sure if they deserve to be on the website, if think they are up to standards then I have no problem.
  9. This bruised ego of mine Snaped back to where I started yet, thin light shines through It?s all I ever wanted I must find a way To Place my pride upon the shelf I can?t keep turning away Worrying about everyone else To say forgive me Is what I must weep through To say forget it Is what a bigger man would do This boiling angers steaming out From years of being run over I cant expect them to be perfect Marching to orders like a gold soldier I take it all out on them No one is always right That?s just unspeakable understand its not spite To say forgive me Is what I must weep through To say forget it Is what a bigger man would do Robot Children Your brains been washed away To complicated for them all All you wanted was to play Placid and calm they leave you here So cold and alone, but oh so clear I?m the robot they always hoped for They hold the controls to all my doors Another saturated baby Good little boy Saturated child Walking robot, their pride and joy Got a little bright eyed Time for a fill up Mommy can?t handle when you cry Like sticking your head in the sand But you know the important tricks Sit, speak, can play dead on command Another saturated baby Good little boy Saturated child Walking robot, their pride and Sickness Shallow and empty We devised our own fate Swallow the hungry Oh how we desecrate Sit on our thrones Men among ants Lavish impurities We our the disease Godly contempt For self control Holy pretense To gather all you hold on too Strangle the witnesses The collective is becoming weak Fight over similarities to take from those in need Where is the usefulness We our own disease Of natural selfishness Spreading like a weed inner-war I won?t run and hide this time Much more centralized now This fear can?t knock me out I?m going to stab it all away I want feel you die I want to see you bleed Push away this fright That sterilizes me I want to watch you die I want to whisper the screams Push away my terror Of you criticizing me This pull and hold tide Has soaked me for so long Won?t let lies hinder my progress Must hold to be desire to be strong Won?t let you engulf me Again Won?t let you push me to my End Won?t let you in Never again My failure to motivate leads to you So use to falling before I begin Intertwine in my desire and anxiety Between is a war for supremacy I want feel you die I want to see you bleed Push away this fright Of you criticizing me So timid So timid Never again timid
  10. I have just came out over this past year, it started a year ago October 6th when I came out to my brother. He picked me up from work and we were driving and he was talking about girls, as we drove down my street I told him to keep driving pass our house that I needed to tell him something. I told him I was gay and he took it great just like I thought he would. Then in May I told my Mom. I was scared as anything but knew I needed to. She was shocked, which shocked me. But she was fine with it. I still couldn't and didn't want to tell me Dad. I had no idea how he would take it, but thought it would be real bad. Shortly after telling my Mom I started dating someone and fell in love with him. We spent the summer together but he had to go home in August which was 12 hours away, we talked about it and I really wanted to move with him by Labor day. I also knew I would have to tell my Dad. So at the end of July I told my dad, and he said he already had guessed, as did my younger brother who I also told that day. I've since moved in with my Boyfriend and I haven't been happier in my life
  11. Thanks a lot!! Nope didn't disappear just met a great guy and well you now how that goes
  12. BLIND Why can't you see what you've done? Turn on the moon that spun your lies. Heading for pastures in the gleaming sun, laughing as he falls from the sky. Forgetting all the times he lit the way, how in your darkness he stood by your side. Why can't you understand what you've become? A solar flare burning out of time. But what is left when you've had your fun, when you betray those who Worshipped your sign Those who refused to let you get lost. Those who now feel dull beneath your great shine. It's a shame that someone so bright could be so blind. But if you stay with the sun too long, you?re sure to be burned. Friend How did you just walk away? Just up and left me behind. Haven't sent word of your new life. You said you were a friend, yet you display how little you care. Our paths may never cross again. Does that thought keep your eyes open at night? Never let me know you were leaving, yet I can't stand to be angry. Could be you lay extinct somewhere, and I couldn't deal with that shame. But if not anger what can I feel? What is it I can use to hide the pain? How can someone mean so much to me, yet seem to have no respect? I'm dealing though. Yep, I'll get by. You were a friend. Yep, what a lie. Goodbye Its must be nice to know that someone cares so much about you. Don't show it though. Refuse to face this, treat it all as if its some kind of game. I?m not asking you to feel it too, just don't ask me to be ashamed. I wish you'd stay here with me. I'm saying I need you, to be free. I just can't get it right. I can't say it tonight. Hurt I've been away for awhile I know. We both needed time to think, time to heal this vibrant sting. But all it did was make it clear. So many feelings left unsaid, too many hurts left undead. I know we?re at the point where we both try to point our fingers. I've been away for awhile I know. We both needed time to think, time to heal this vibrant sting. But all it did was make it clear. So many feelings left unsaid, too many hurts left undead. I know we?re at the point where we both try to point our fingers, that reason fades and blame lingers. But I can't do that to us, after everything we have been through. I stand here better for having known you, even if its time to say goodbye. We no long walk side by side, the credits are rolling, everyone's gone. Leaving us to fall alone. We just seem to hurt each other the harder that we try. I hope you don't take this as if I don't care. The pain is almost more than I can bear. Its ripping me apart but I just know its time. I no longer make you happy, I see it in your eyes. The hardest part is doing it alone. When I've hurt in the past, I always turned to you. When I needed to talk you were the ears. I can't do that now and it scares me, like learning to breath again. Thanks to Gaby for editing this junk I had written months and months ago and making me believe it was decent
  13. Thirdeye

    Angel

    I?d like to lay awake a watch the noon I?d like to pretend I?ll be asleep very soon I?d like to circle my head within this swoon I?d like to in vision the masks locked inside these rooms I?d like to freeze time and hum your tune I?d like to smell the bleached roses on the moon I?d like to martyr myself inside the womb I?d like to ride a wave of amber black fume I'd like to be the Coyote in your cartoon I?d like to know when our time is doomed I?d like to be the love bug who knows to spoon I?d like to be the dust blowing towards the dune I?d like to be the frosty bite you feel in June I'd like to run away from your eyes zoom I'd like to make all these hearts immune I?d like to be the water that doesn?t make you prune I?d like to know where I?ll have my Tomb I?d like to feed all the colors that are in bloom I?d like to be the conscience of the goon I?d like to be the language of the loon I'd like to be the man not the costume
  14. Thirdeye

    Angel

    You saw my shadow losing light And reflected it in kind You changed my color and brightness Reminded me I could smile Never have I had this shine Never have I had it all Everything I saw in my mind You make me better with each second A better human to stand before your alter I swear I?ll always bow here I swear I?ll always be near I don?t understand it at times But I don?t doubt this You make me feel to delighted with each breath I wish I knew what was here I wish I knew it all by now I want to see it though your thoughts don?t ever think I don?t understand how lucky I am To have your love around me I love you truly I remember your first touch upon my sight It was like my own divine revolution As birds were flung over head you touched my hand And left the prints on my soul I use to dream about your light Leading me up and around the holes The aqua flavor in my mouth now shines maroon I owe it all to you I swear I?ll always bow here I swear I?ll always be near I wish I knew what was here I wish I knew it all by now I want to see it though your thoughts don?t ever think I don?t understand how lucky I am To have your love around me I love you truly
  15. condolences TG. :HUGS:
  16. They like to play their games Push their wicked ways Hide in their dividers To stab you as you stroll by They pretend they care As if they ever could Pretend to understand To lead you alone out back They don?t want you here Nesting with the crocodiles They don?t want you near Never mind the smiles Your just a cancer in their path A problem in their lives A total waste of time Nothing but a burden To bind them to the grind They like to be polite While they push you towards the train All part of the plan Hooded and led astray They look to burry this man I can?t help but feel this Why can?t you just say what you mean Don?t tell tales when I?m away To many voices fighting for my head So insecure, so insecure, so paranoid I?m not crazy, but I?m not sure I just need some sleep They don?t want you here Nesting with the crocodiles They don?t want you near Never mind the smiles Your just a cancer in their path A problem in their lives A total waste of time Nothing but a burden To bind them to the grind Why can't you just like me just take me as I am Why can't you just like me at the very leasy let me be
  17. Defeated and ruined Know I did it in love When I see you again forgive me When we meet again my friend And if I were to beg you now What would it be you say to me Its my fault your not here What good would sorry be You flew away on a needle To escape the hurt in your eyes Ran away to break free From everything I did to make you cry What good is a sorry now As I stare upon your bed Can?t help but recall that last night The love we made, I pushed away Love I wouldn't let take flight As I stare upon where you sleep Can?t help but think it should be me Now all I?m left with is sorry As I lay by your feet Battered and bruised Defeated and ruined Know I did it in love When I see you again forgive me When we meet again my friend Know I can?t forgive myself As I weep upon this ground Only left with sorry to keep me warm Good bye my friend your time has gone And I have let you down As I lay by your feet Battered and bruised Defeated and ruined Know I did it in love When I see you again forgive me When we meet again my friend
  18. I love this and Deweys site. I have met so many great people through them in just three months. And thats npt even mentioning the great authors we have here.
  19. On the verge of another breakdown I wait screaming without a sound Beg you to sit with me for awhile But your just looking for a body without a soul Something pretty for you to defile No need to ask questions to answers you don?t want Just let me be now, away from this place Before I agree to become your disgrace On the verge of another breakdown I wait crying without a sound So withdrawn inside this world Where people really don?t care To look past the fake smile on the outside See how within everything?s bare I made promises to you all, I haven?t let down Never let down anyone but my self I?m just a spec falling off radar Looking for a place to land Look for a way to make my stand On the verge of another breakdown I wait dying without a sound Always feel like the joke All eyes always on me Feel like I?m just the fly around your head Someone you?d rather not see Discarded like the old trend Feel like a fool among scholars A mouse among men On the verge of another breakdown What the hell is wrong with me Dropped this pile into my lap But I still wear it gladly What the hell is wrong with me On the verge of another breakdown I wait screaming with no one around
  20. You burnt me again baby I must like how this flame tastes Like the moth to light, I?ll keep coming Only to be sent to my death again I?ll dust myself off and get back on the ride I believe you mean it this time I know I?m stupid, but its alright When it comes to you I have no pride Maybe I enjoy being put down Maybe I enjoy you being ruff Maybe I enjoy being let down Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love I?m so damn sickly But I know it and its ok Pushed my aside to play your games Yet I do just what you say Like the puppy that gets smacked again Just don?t know how to say when I?ll never learn because I can?t smell this Even after you stick my nose in it Maybe I enjoy being put down Maybe I enjoy you being ruff Maybe I enjoy being let down Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love Its just a matter of time until you change I?m willing to wait it out You?ll be thankful when were older Going to make you so proud So what if you mess around Your still next to me half the time And really who?s counting Were going to be just fine Maybe I enjoy being put down Maybe I enjoy you being ruff Maybe I enjoy being let down Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love You let me drown again baby Let dive into foot deep water Like a fish thrown back to sea I?m quick to take the bait again Its just how I show I care When it come to you I know no pride It takes to much time to stand up for myself I?d rather just let it slide Maybe I enjoy being put down Maybe I enjoy you being ruff Maybe I enjoy being let down Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love
  21. Kudos to you for pushing through So glad to see you standing again Out of the forest and endless rain Fought for everything you saved Never gave up and never sold out You broke the line, never leaving doubt But now the wars over and you won You don?t know where you belong You can?t sit still, so use to being on the run Found the cost of peace to be living in tedium You got all you wanted but you need something more In you constant struggle left love at the door Looking back within a haze, regret trolling the bay All the people you knew have left and gone away They lead their lives with in a bubble The Bubble you blew astray You fought the evil world but never leaving time Making list of goals never just echoing day by day Yes the wars over and you won In the world your a hero to many But loved by none
  22. I wonder what its like to be a whisper That rolls off of your lips Sounding sweet and delicate Shocking all my limbs I wonder what its like be the wind The glides through your hair So soft and so graceful swaying without a care I wonder what its like to be a gaze That beams from your eyes Gleaming so deep and piercing as blue as an afternoon sky I wonder what its like to be an image Known by your dreams Looked on as something special Making your smile beam I wonder what its like to be someone Seen by your eyes Hands running through your hair Lips touching mine I wonder where your are I wonder what you?d say I wonder what you?d feel about Wondering your life away
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