[Melancholia]

I hope none of you have ever experienced the feelings this poem evokes. I admit my feelings came very close to it, but please don't sweat. I am stronger, this poem was in many ways therapuetic in draining drakness from my heart. :-)

Only when we have experienced the darkest of emotions we truly come to appreciate the light in life. Like they say, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

It is difficult to see hope in this poem, but compare the light you have experienced in life against this. I am sure then you will appreciate even the minor happy moments in life better. Treasure them like jewels, in the end only they will make u a rich man.

Peace.

Sean.

PS: I apologize for the mistakes (literary I mean) in the peom.

[Melancholia]

Melancholia

Tears leaking from the eyes cannot quench the fiery pain

I have suppressed this flood long enough, because boys don?t cry

Meaningless fury at my impotency in defeating this formless foe

Dejected, exhausted of hoping and praying, waiting for it all end

There is no peace, not even in the garden of paradise when chaos reins in my mind.

Sands of time slip away, I wait for the moment when this pain would finally go away

When I have breathed the last breath, when the spark of life has burned one last time

Only then, only then this pain mercifully will end. Oh I want to let go, let go of this life

I take refuge in the darkness; in its embrace I know I will be safe

The light of life has hurt me too much; blissfully I will shut my eyes

Shut off seductions of life?s illusions of hope and gladly I will sleep

Oh what fool I was to ever think I would be happy, yes fool indeed

I feel alone even in the company of friends and family

Merriest of music does nothing but stir melancholia in me

Happy faces belie agony even demons of hell can?t imagine

Silence in the surroundings belies the hysteria with in

Lust still stirs me for the beast we humans are but bliss in orgasm just isn?t complete

Fears and guilt gnaw persistently at my being until a living carcass is all that remains

Laughter, an insane laughter rattles me until deluge of tears try to drain pain in futility

Born to die and die we all will, might as well fulfill this ultimate truth now than later

Yes I dreamed dreams of happiness and of joy, that I might be happy some day.

I am in the lonely desert of life and vultures are hovering, waiting for me to fall.

Blessed darkness swirling, blurring out hurt, pain and I feel numbness engulf me

My mind is going and I feel blissful nothingness, damn the world and damn life

[Poem: I am what I am I fear no consequence]

Thank you DJ and Tragic Rabbit. This is my second poem here in AD, the other one is Life's Listless Litany.

Sean.

[Poem: I am what I am I fear no consequence]

I am what I am I fear no consequence

Hell will freeze and heaven seize

When I rock both beauty and beast

Salvation or damnation I?ll be the judge

I am what I am I fear no consequence

I give myself freely to temptations

To rage and anger, to lust and hatred

No rules no guilt will ever bind me

I am what I am I fear no consequence

I?ll let no shepard lead me

Nor let no satan sway me

Shackles can never bind me

I am what I am I fear no consequence.

I am my own island living like a god

Demons of hell and angels of heaven

Rock with me until the times end

I am what I am I fear no consequence

Call it lovemaking or lustful f**king

Giving and getting some is all I care

Call me sinner or a saint what do I care

I am what I am I fear no consequence

[Poem: Life's Listless Litany]

Thanx for the warm welcome, I appreciate it. For the record, this poem was my experiment in rhyming. I wrote it in one of my darkest moments.

I hope all those who read it, look at its literary value (if at all there is any) rather than the feelings/import it conveys. I know it is impossible to separate the both, but I want it known that its not my intention to influence the readers towards negativity.

Sean

[Poem: Life's Listless Litany]

Hi all, I am Sean just joined the site. Check out my poem and let know what you think.

Senseless or sensible suicide

Saluting the sepulchral silence

Sundering seductive songs spell

Solitude sways the soul to sleep

Deaths determined delirium

Dousing doleful depression as

Dire doldrums derisively drawl

Dark dusk demands deathly deed

Bravely besting life?s jest

Bleed blood to blissful burst

Brandish bestial bayonets just

Banishing black bigotry to dust

Goodbye to fatal fears

Goodbye to fanatical faith

Goodbye to fantasized future

Goodbye to phantom freedom