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Um, Hi!

Jason Rimbaud

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So, how's it going? Naw, that's stupid. After all, I haven't done anything in this Blog for forever and that's the weakest opening ever.

Over the last few days, I've been re-reading all these entries and I've come up with better sentences on all of them. So I must come up with something better than, how's it going? I had thought about explaining why I haven't posted anything in forever, but that seems like a cope out and probably no one cares. I also thought about doing some chit and some chat about my life the last few months. But for the life of me, nothing exciting stands out. I get up at 9am, I go to work. I get home around midnight and go to bed. Repeat forever. So that would be boring.

Maybe I should start this Blog exactly where I left off all those forever moments ago. But then all you'd have to read about is what I wrote in the above sentence.

Fuck it.

I'm single, so I have no exciting stories to relate about dirty sheets and closet dwelling twinks.

I'm a bit balder now, but really, it's not like I can hide it anymore.

I'm still drug free, but really, did anyone ever truly doubt that?

I lurk around at Awesome Dude, and can't find anything witty to say, not surprising.

I read a few of the new flash fictions, commented when they struck a cord, but mostly I remained silent.

Which is quite disturbing in a way, considering Awesome Dude was and still is my first home. It's where I started Blogging, it's where most of you got to know me through my rambling and continuous digressions. But for a long time, I felt like this Blog was part of the past. It chronicled things in my life that I didn't want to think about anymore. Things that I felt would only drag me down if I continued to let them fester. Hell, this is the place where I left Mark, and good riddance by the way.

But lately, I felt like I had abandoned a part of me that could be used for my future self.

I don't know, maybe I'm just lazy and have been focusing on myself and my offline life too much to offer up things here. But then I read something that Cole posted to one of my comments in Flash Fiction, and it got me thinking. A Blog isn't something that chronicles just the past, it's about the now, what's going on right now and who's playing a part in my continuous evolution as a human. I don't think it's fair of me to view these pages as a past I would rather forget. I think I should use these pages as a future I would like to share.

I won't make promises that I'll do better in the future, I won't say that I'll never take a break from this Blog, because that would be just another bullshit statement to make everyone else feel better. And this Blog has never been about making other's feel better, though after reading some of the things I wrote, I think it made lots of people feel better, if nothing but to show that someone else is a bit dumber.

So Hi Ho and away we go...again.

Jason

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DesDownunder

It's great to see you writing in your blog again, but remember a blog can be whatever you want it to be, and every entry can be a different style or whatever. I'm sure most of us would read it no matter what you write, because you do it so well. :wub:

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Cole Parker

I had thought about explaining why I haven't posted anything in forever, but that seems like a cope out and probably no one cares. -- JasonI not only care, I'm very proud of you for leaving your drugs behind and living a life for the past few months you'll be able to remember.Jason, you're at that time of life where lots of energy gets spent on the job, less on the things you used to spend it on. It is, for lack of a better word, the dreadful encroachment of, shall I say it? -- maturity.That doesn't mean you're dead. It means you're joining the rest of us who've been there, done that, and moved on.It's not surprising you dno't have as much time and interest in bloging her than you did. Your time is more precious.But we love hearing from you, and hope you will drop us a note and catch us up from time to time.Cole

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