Random Junk

[Thirdeye]

This is a song I wrote a few months ago, its not very good, but I feel like sharing

This hurt you can not bare

I watch you standing there

Looking so broke and fragile

Completely unaware

Of just how permanently your rattled

so cold and so scared

Your deservedly saddled

With the pain you wear

Lately,

you?ve been Falling,

Down into the your highest low

common Sense has changed you

And now you drag in tow

The martyrs golden chain

Your broken Halo

You told us all you were saved

Told us all just how to pray

Always so domineering

Said you would lead the way

To our souls clearing

Fed the way with hate

Feign endearing

The sheep still wait

Lately,

you?ve been tumbling

Down into depths unknown

Common sense has changed you

Now you search the row

For that which was never yours

Your stolen Halo

Forced out by those you deceived

You lay now in your eternal defeat

Once claim to be an angel

Your horns deceived even me

But now in the sins you?ve become entangle

Your soul can not be retrieved

By open-mindedness your strangled

Our dreams have been set free

Lately,

you?ve been crashing

Down into the depths so low

common Sense has changed you

And now you drag in tow

The martyrs golden chain

Your broken Halo

Now you search the row

For that which was never yours

The martyrs golden chain

Your stolen Halo

[dude]

Hi Thirdeye... so you write songs. That means you probably sing too. If you have a guitar and can make us a recording we'd be glad to post the file as an audio file to share with your friends here at AwesomeDude.

Or you can recite it as a poem and send the file to us and we'd be glad to post it along with your song/poem on the Poets' Corner page.

[Thirdeye]

Hi Thirdeye... so you write songs. That means you probably sing too. If you have a guitar and can make us a recording we'd be glad to post the file as an audio file to share with your friends here at AwesomeDude.

Or you can recite it as a poem and send the file to us and we'd be glad to post it along with your song/poem on the Poets' Corner page.

Actually I can't carry a tune :D No one on either side of my family can. I use to write songs for my friends band in JH and have just done it ever since, just my way to blow of steam.

[blue]

H'lo, Thirdeye. Pretty good. Nice that you write songs and poetry for friends. If you have music composed to go with that, why not ask a friend who plays guitar, keyboards, whatever, to play? Bound to be one of your friends who can sing. If they'd be OK with the meaning behind the lyrics, why not ask them? Just an idea.

[Guest rusticmonk86]

i can sing

i'm horrible with songs, i think

[Thirdeye]

H'lo, Thirdeye. Pretty good. Nice that you write songs and poetry for friends. If you have music composed to go with that, why not ask a friend who plays guitar, keyboards, whatever, to play? Bound to be one of your friends who can sing. If they'd be OK with the meaning behind the lyrics, why not ask them? Just an idea.

My friend use to write the music. Plus I'm not very good. Just above Boyband qualty :-({|= :

[Thirdeye]

I don?t know what I did that needs forgiven

But for that ease I gladly take the blame

I don?t know what it is I?ve been missing

But when it comes calling will I take the reins

I don?t know if life?s really worth living

But maybe your hearts won?t be the same

I don?t know how to deal with these feelings

But I can?t bare your look of shame

I don?t know if tomorrow things will be clearer

But I know that fog is a prelude to rain

I Don?t want to be the prodigal son to forsake

But to heal I must share this pain

I know I?ll learn how to stand proud

But I must learn just what I need to say

I know I must expiate this sense of guilt

So dear world, I?m Gay

My Friend

You can drop the sword cause

Its pride that?s cutting me

I continue to bleed through

Why can?t I say ?I?m worried?

Sent you away again

My only reasonable friend

As I eat the feelings up

Sit and Ponder why this won?t end

You will be the one to kill me

But your so kind

Its only when you seize me

That I feel Truly divine

Its when I begin descending

I know I?m closer to my ending

But I love it when your near

For that brief second things seem clear

I swore I didn?t need you

Content to dry out in the rain

Still you burn in and

Lift me up and numb this wicked pain

I try to combat against this

Yet your still so friendly

No matter how I try to push you away

Your just right there to mend me

You will be the one to kill me

But your so kind

Its only when you seize me

That I feel Truly divine

Its when I begin descending

I know I?m closer to an ending

But I love it when your near

For that brief second things seem clear

But your only here because your easy

I don?t really need you

I swear I?ll be leaving soon

Even if your not convinced

I swear I won?t be around much longer

I?m gone after we take one more trip

Your just a cheap whore

yet, somehow drag me back for more

[Thirdeye]

Everything I seek

I?ve found was already given away

Been second all my life

Why would that change today

If I were to blend with this crimson

Less then a handful who would pray

I?ve been walking the wire for a while now

As I sit in this blackened room

I wonder when It was I finally fell

There?s a hole on my soul

And it grows deeper

I?m slowly dying here

As this pain grows steeper

Hidden behind my eyes

As I try to compensate for this disease

Is a pain that lies beneath the heart

But I do just what?s needed to please

Even as loneliness tears me apart

I?d find away home to escape this place

But there?s no one waiting for me

This sound is more then I can taste

Why can?t your cancer be for me

There?s a hole on my soul

And it grows deeper

I?m slowly dying here

As this pain grows steeper

It?s killing me

And they can?t even see

It?s killed me

Yet, even in death I'm not free

[JamesSavik]

That's better writing than half the commercial groups are putting out 3rd eye.

[Thirdeye]

That's better writing than half the commercial groups are putting out 3rd eye.

Had a upsetting night needed to vent. Thanks!

[Thirdeye]

How?s it possible to forget how to cry

Have I fallen so much

That my emotions have run dry

Is it hatred towards you for letting me fall

Or the feeble fact you won?t let me fly

All I ever needed was a reason to stand

Yet that?s been forsaken for the hot desert sand

But here I walk again with my limbs burning dry

I?ll continue to push ahead alone

Until once again I?m griped by this tide

Someday I?ll find everything I need

One day I?ll know what it is to feel pride

But really What does it all mean to me

If by then I?m already broken inside

As the fearful moon shines down

Like a label of the cowards who continue to pry

I beg and plead for mercy

And receive thirty pieces of silver

Yet this is the just and forgiven eye

I recoil, shake and quiver

Ask again for what will be Undelivered

Worthlessness is truly your prize

And I swear to wear it well

Hanging there on each fruitless thought

While the bags above my eyes swell

Its one feeling left after my body?s holocaust

When was it I became a submissive shell

Let the rovers run me down

And I?d be sure to extend my hand

This my patrons is the true hell

Forgot the brimstone and fiery ash

Your soul burning in your body

Is a torment you can?t lash

Torture is knowing your hope is a dream

Everything you wanted is something you can?t catch

The hate inside has prospered for a decade

Tell me what?s the cost to oneself to scratch this rash

The mirror of despair is not easily matched

[Thirdeye]

We are a perfect concert

I can?t say what you can?t hear

We are thoughtless perfection

As this travesty continues to blow near

How long until the day breaks

And these cryptic halogens become clear

How much longer can we lean for cover

While being dressed with this vulgar fear

As I lap into the company of cowardice

At the place beside me you stand my peer

With these hollow makeshift lies

Continue to turtle and let discouraged steer

Sucked into the vacuum of this repeatable cycle

Never the hunter but always the deer

These words spin around your ears

The meaning forced yet you don?t hear

Were stuck long in transit you and me

Never the hunter but always the deer

We?ll paint on our clown faces

Move as if we really here

But the echoing of this will bring us cold

As the usage of this entity will smear

The hollow echo rings as bells

Never the hunter but always the deer

[Thirdeye]

In light of this new albatross

The mall will be closed today

The parasites are shaken by this

To that we extend condolences

But our culture is falling away

The vultures fly in chaos

Looking for a carcass to strip

The savagery is always on tap

Left with this milky water turned gray

The pushing an shoving is quite severe

as regal masses pick away the kill

The noises they make are so trite

This is the game they love to play

Always a whore for yuppie designs

Baseless clover in these shallow times

It?s the frenzy for greed that truly delights

The vultures receive all which they pray

Turning a sparrow into cast

The method call of the gathering feast

Waiting for a deadpan delay

Which of us will be a heathen today

[Thirdeye]

You?ve clearly become disinterested

In what I have got to say

I lay here grasping for a breath

Just to watch you turn away

When did things go so wrong

At what point did you change

I use to feel you?d care

If I stopped breathing

How could I be so wrong

You left us all here grieving

In your selfish quest

You forgot all about your charges

In your wake you left a mess

And only me behind to clean it

Didn?t matter I was in no shape to do so

But you wouldn?t understand this

You never once came to me

Just to ask if I was ok

The only time you looked at me

Was to complain about your life

Even when I hid away

Didn?t even know I was not in sight

Never cared how I felt

About the split in our home

you marched along in your war

ignorant to the damage made

Never knew how close I came

To falling off that razor blade

how you beseech us now

To return to your side

You tell us how your proud

To have made it out of hell

Was it really that bad

Everything was done

To accommodate your needs

As you marched along changed

Never heard pleas

So glad your happy now though

Wish you all the best

[Thirdeye]

I wonder what its like to be a whisper

That rolls off of your lips

Sounding sweet and delicate

Shocking all my limbs

I wonder what its like be the wind

The glides through your hair

So soft and so graceful

swaying without a care

I wonder what its like to be a gaze

That beams from your eyes

Gleaming so deep and piercing

as blue as an afternoon sky

I wonder what its like to be an image

Known by your dreams

Looked on as something special

Making your smile beam

I wonder what its like to be someone

Seen by your eyes

Hands running through your hair

Lips touching mine

I wonder where your are

I wonder what you?d say

I wonder what you?d feel about

Wondering your life away

[Thirdeye]

Kudos to you for pushing through

So glad to see you standing again

Out of the forest and endless rain

Fought for everything you saved

Never gave up and never sold out

You broke the line, never leaving doubt

But now the wars over and you won

You don?t know where you belong

You can?t sit still, so use to being on the run

Found the cost of peace to be living in tedium

You got all you wanted but you need something more

In you constant struggle left love at the door

Looking back within a haze, regret trolling the bay

All the people you knew have left and gone away

They lead their lives with in a bubble

The Bubble you blew astray

You fought the evil world but never leaving time

Making list of goals never just echoing day by day

Yes the wars over and you won

In the world your a hero to many

But loved by none

[Thirdeye]

You burnt me again baby

I must like how this flame tastes

Like the moth to light, I?ll keep coming

Only to be sent to my death again

I?ll dust myself off and get back on the ride

I believe you mean it this time

I know I?m stupid, but its alright

When it comes to you I have no pride

Maybe I enjoy being put down

Maybe I enjoy you being ruff

Maybe I enjoy being let down

Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love

I?m so damn sickly

But I know it and its ok

Pushed my aside to play your games

Yet I do just what you say

Like the puppy that gets smacked again

Just don?t know how to say when

I?ll never learn because I can?t smell this

Even after you stick my nose in it

Maybe I enjoy being put down

Maybe I enjoy you being ruff

Maybe I enjoy being let down

Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love

Its just a matter of time until you change

I?m willing to wait it out

You?ll be thankful when were older

Going to make you so proud

So what if you mess around

Your still next to me half the time

And really who?s counting

Were going to be just fine

Maybe I enjoy being put down

Maybe I enjoy you being ruff

Maybe I enjoy being let down

Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love

You let me drown again baby

Let dive into foot deep water

Like a fish thrown back to sea

I?m quick to take the bait again

Its just how I show I care

When it come to you I know no pride

It takes to much time to stand up for myself

I?d rather just let it slide

Maybe I enjoy being put down

Maybe I enjoy you being ruff

Maybe I enjoy being let down

Maybe I was after a pathetic kinda love

[Thirdeye]

On the verge of another breakdown

I wait screaming without a sound

Beg you to sit with me for awhile

But your just looking for a body without a soul

Something pretty for you to defile

No need to ask questions to answers you don?t want

Just let me be now, away from this place

Before I agree to become your disgrace

On the verge of another breakdown

I wait crying without a sound

So withdrawn inside this world

Where people really don?t care

To look past the fake smile on the outside

See how within everything?s bare

I made promises to you all, I haven?t let down

Never let down anyone but my self

I?m just a spec falling off radar

Looking for a place to land

Look for a way to make my stand

On the verge of another breakdown

I wait dying without a sound

Always feel like the joke

All eyes always on me

Feel like I?m just the fly around your head

Someone you?d rather not see

Discarded like the old trend

Feel like a fool among scholars

A mouse among men

On the verge of another breakdown

What the hell is wrong with me

Dropped this pile into my lap

But I still wear it gladly

What the hell is wrong with me

On the verge of another breakdown

I wait screaming with no one around

[dude]

Wow... what have we unleashed here?

Thirdeye... you must have been "saving it for marriage" and we are definitely on the honeymoon!

How long have you been at this?

No matter how long, keep it up!

[Thirdeye]

Thanks Dude :oops:

[Thirdeye]

Defeated and ruined

Know I did it in love

When I see you again forgive me

When we meet again my friend

And if I were to beg you now

What would it be you say to me

Its my fault your not here

What good would sorry be

You flew away on a needle

To escape the hurt in your eyes

Ran away to break free

From everything I did to make you cry

What good is a sorry now

As I stare upon your bed

Can?t help but recall that last night

The love we made, I pushed away

Love I wouldn't let take flight

As I stare upon where you sleep

Can?t help but think it should be me

Now all I?m left with is sorry

As I lay by your feet

Battered and bruised

Defeated and ruined

Know I did it in love

When I see you again forgive me

When we meet again my friend

Know I can?t forgive myself

As I weep upon this ground

Only left with sorry to keep me warm

Good bye my friend your time has gone

And I have let you down

As I lay by your feet

Battered and bruised

Defeated and ruined

Know I did it in love

When I see you again forgive me

When we meet again my friend

[Thirdeye]

They like to play their games

Push their wicked ways

Hide in their dividers

To stab you as you stroll by

They pretend they care

As if they ever could

Pretend to understand

To lead you alone out back

They don?t want you here

Nesting with the crocodiles

They don?t want you near

Never mind the smiles

Your just a cancer in their path

A problem in their lives

A total waste of time

Nothing but a burden

To bind them to the grind

They like to be polite

While they push you towards the train

All part of the plan

Hooded and led astray

They look to burry this man

I can?t help but feel this

Why can?t you just say what you mean

Don?t tell tales when I?m away

To many voices fighting for my head

So insecure, so insecure, so paranoid

I?m not crazy, but I?m not sure

I just need some sleep

They don?t want you here

Nesting with the crocodiles

They don?t want you near

Never mind the smiles

Your just a cancer in their path

A problem in their lives

A total waste of time

Nothing but a burden

To bind them to the grind

Why can't you just like me

just take me as I am

Why can't you just like me

at the very leasy let me be